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It doesn’t. But it should. (Part One)

03/18/2011

This post is part of the Lenten synchroblog series on: Following Jesus: What Difference Does it Make? You can read more over on http://www.godspace.wordpress.com.

Come back to me with all your heart.

I don’t often find comfort in church marquee signs, except, routinely in one. It sits at the south end of my city, a place I don’t generally find myself as I live 30 minutes northeast. Every once in awhile, though, I pass it, and sometimes the weight of the sign on my soul requires me to pull over to the side of the road and wait— this most recent time was no exception.

Come back to me with all your heart.

I used to be known as the woman who showed grace under fire. The one whose peace was contagious because it emanated from a much higher peace, a much higher grace and mercy.

But this week, I’ve been unpleasant, irritable— angry, even. I am fearful about today and fearful about tomorrow. I have lost sight of God, whose abundant peace used to pour over my own heart, a soothing balm in the midst of traumatic years.

Come back to me with all your heart.

Nothing major has happened in my life, just small things, creeping in little by little that cause sorrow and stress. And little by little my ability to tap into God’s grace crept out. My heart stopped beating in synch with my Creator’s.

Come back to me with all your heart.

Today, right now, following Jesus doesn’t make much of a difference. But it should. And I have hope that it does (and will), and that I passed the marquee at the right time, when my heart was tender from the pain, from the fear, and the anxiety— but open and willing to accept God’s love— to let him in, again, to do the work of Lent.


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